going_x_crazy is finished, so i'll be using that journal now
please go there and ask to be added if you still want to be my friend♥

working on my new journal... going_x_crazy

well, its strange having animation shop again... often i see something or make something i think to myself "if only i could animate that." but of course, now that i can animate it, i don't remember the things i had wanted to animate :) oh well. i'm going to post some of my makings/expariments kk?
( gosh i love cuts! )

people do this all the time and now its my turn... i want to get as many comments as i can in this post :)

my goal: 100 comments

doesn't sound too hard right? well get commenting! Spam this post!! i'll comment a lil bit, but not too much. i want it to be mostly you guys, okay? tell me a story, advertise a community, post funny pix, just leave pointless comments, do ANYTHING! :D just help me get my 100 comments please



i'll love you forever if you do this for me♥

**half way to 100! great job

omg omg omg! i love jaded_soul_88 because from her i downloaded PSP9 & ANIMATION SHOP! my favorite program on the planet!! so now i can make animations and BLINKIES! because that other program i had was hard for blinkies... but yeah :) she has Photoshop CS2 for download. i think it would be good for my graphic making to have yet another software but... it would take up SO much memory. i already have 2 PSPs and AS... but for my grad present my parents are getting the other comp. fixed and putting it in my room so i can burn these programs onto a DVD or put them in a zip file & burn the zip because sometimes you can't burn programs, and then i'll delete them from here. but how long til i get the other comp?? i just hope she doesn't delete her post before i decide :) omg... FULL VERSIONS! this is such a good day

i decided to look thru ppl's user pages to see when their birthday's were... i looked at the ppl on my friend's list, makers at xoxgraphics, and fellow members @ xoxgraphics that are also members at communities that i'm a member at. so in other words, people who i think i know pretty well as far as the kind of person they are. and wow, was i shocked by some of their ages.
13-15 = 9 .. 16-18 = 4 .. 19-20 = 2 .. 20 + = 2that many people are younger than me! and they don't even seem that young. i feel like they're the same age as me. its so weird... haha, you all are prolly just like "okay so...?" :) its okay. it just surprised me, thats all.

YESSS! i still have it! my creativity i mean :) gosh, for the longest time i was like "why can't i come up with something original for a freebie? something all my idea??" and well yeah, this has prolly been done before, but its not over done like LJ info titles & blends... :D i'm just so excited!! wanna know what it is now?? wanted poster icons!
( like this )
isn't that awesome?! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [yeah, i'm REAL excited].... well anyway, i'm off to make more of those quote icons [which were about to be my next freebie] ¡chao!




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update about the last post... its gone. dunno what it was, but it cleared up. so yeah, i've been making quote icons. :) found two great quote communities here @ LJ. i'm sure there's more good ones than 2, but i only started looking... finding some awesome quotes for icons. some great quotes that are too big tho, so i might make banners. one quote that i found is: "the truth is... everyones gonna hurt you
you. just have to decide who's worth the pain..." and even tho its kinda sad, its true. makes me mad when i see quotes like "No guy is worth your tears & when you find one that is, he won't make you cry" and thats just not true. all people have the ability to make you mad or sad, even hurt. its life and its going to happen. ....quite a few nice friendship quotes and 'about girls' quotes. which are a nice change to all the love//unloved quotes. okay. so, i'm back to work! just wanted to take a break and let ya'll know the stats of my rash or whatever it was. i'll post my icons @ icon_artists when i'm done w/ enough to make a nice post :) so look there sometime soon
.chao

oy. i want to post about what's goin' on. but i'm afraid it might be inappropriate. and i don't feel like making it a custom entry simply because i don't care who reads about this, and i don't know who would be okay about reading about this. and what's the point of making it private? the whole point of posting it is so i can tell ppl and feel better about the situation. *sigh* for all of you that are worried now, don't be. its nothing serious. well... it has my mom freaking, but i'm fine. its just something wrong with my body. i might have to go to the doctor's tomarrow. i have sore, red spots on me. should i say where?? umm... my breasts. they started hurting last nite and today i noticed that they were really red. my mom is so paranoid, and sometimes i think she's a hypochondriac so she's saying things like "it might be breast cancer!" and all that... like i said, i'm not worried. but i want to know why it happened! grrrr... *sigh* so yeah. that's all i had to say. it was buggin' me and i knew i'd feel better after updating. and i do. even tho i really haven't updated yet. cuz i didn't hit the 'update journal' button. but yeah, close enough :)

got these from blank___surveys

( while i was waiting for Mike to decide to come online... )

so yeah... i stayed the nite at Sabrina's last nite. i'm not sure if that was a good thing or bad thing. Thursday when Mike called i told him i was going over to her house and i wasn't very excited... he could tell. he told me that if i didn't really wanna be friends with her ((which i really don't)) then to end it now. yeah, i know thats the right thing to do, but its hard! so i figure "oh, whats a few hours" well for a change i had fun with her. we went shoe shopping and tried on a whole bunch of shoes. it was interesting :) so when she asked if i wanted to stay the night i was like 'why not' plus i didn't feel like coming up with an excuse on the spot. i was outta material. so yeah, after i picked up my stuff and went back to her house i was bored out of my mind. we just sat there not even talking to each other. all she kept saying was "what do you want to do?" like usual. it was so annoying. well, we finally decided to go to Silver Cinemas to see a movie. i was like "HITCH is good!" so we saw that. she loved it, i loved it again. things were looking up. but then we sat around her house again... i was glad when i finally convinced her it was time for sleep. and i slept til 12:30, we talked for a lil, she left the room and i fell back asleep til 1:30. then i got dressed, we went to taco bell and then she dropped me off here cuz i told her i was going to the cookout, and Mike was gunna be here at like 4 to pick me up and i had to shower and get ready and all that... so i almost feel like staying the nite at her house gave her the impression we're still best buds and we still have fun and i'm pulling her closer even tho thats not really what i want to do. but also, the fact that there were so many awkward/silent moments, you would think she would figure out we don't have anything in common anymore. i paid attention to the things i talked about... i had no idea i had that much to say about Mike & Alaina. seriously everything was "Mike and I this..." and "the other day Alaina was saying that..." OY! well, i'm off to the shower. a loooong shower :) i love those!



**ps - like the layout? its prolly only temporary, but its a nice change :)

new layout may be coming soon...

Mike just left... it was a crazy day today!*sigh* i'm so tired. hmmm... but yeah, even tho i was @ Laina's grad party for a lil over 2 hours i felt like i wasn't there long enough... her friend that's going to Conerstone showed up. just made me wanna laugh :) cuz he's her clone (the male version) yeah, so i didn't see My Nhia and i had an invite to my grad party and my senior pic but i forgot to leave them w/ Laina in case My Nhia showed up. either she never came, or w/ my luck she came RIGHT after i left... oy. my head hurts really bad so i'm gunna go lay down. prolly gunna go to sleep.

just finished finding some baby pix for my grad party... now i gotta scan them, touch up a few, and print them on photo paper so i can cut & paste them :) heehee. so yeah... sabrina's info is confusing the heck outta me. it says...

online time: 8 hours, 43 minutes
away, idle time: 16 hours, 20 minutes

how can she be online for only 8 hours but idle for 16?! yeah... so i had an idea for a new username like a second ago. i loved it. but do i remember it now... no. >:| grrrr! well... i'll keep thinking. and i promise not to try too hard. i don't want to miss Laina's grad party on account i'm in the hospital for using my noodle. haha! noodle! :D its so funny how i've been updating so much more lately and yet, each time i have absolutly nothing to say. yet when i actually have something to post about, something important, something major, do i? no. didn't update about either of the proms. or the last week of school. or my unveiling really. or graduation... whatever. its all in my head. i can remember it all. ya know, the kinda things you forget the details to, so its not so interesting to tell somebody... but you always remember the good stuff for yourself. like the indescribeable stuff. yeah, i got all that still :) ((did you understand that babble?)) so... xoxgraphics... as for a freebie, i have nothing yet. but i'm getting closer. i really believe that i am! :D well, i'm gunna go. i've said enought about pretty much nothing already, and i know you'd like it if i stopped. so i will. ta ta!

okay, Sabrina had this quote in her AIM info "happiness is like a butterfly, the more you chase it, the more it will elude you. but if you turn your attention to other things it will come and sit softly on your shoulders." and now i ask, why can't she take this advice?? okay, here's my idea. since i'm having trouble w/ ideas for LJ graphics and i've been looking so much at AIM icons, why not make that for freebies @ xoxgraphics?? after all, most ppl have AIM and they could use them for LJ too! so yeah... gotta come up with some examples now. its tough tho not having an animation program. less awesome graphics to offer. plus i'm not as great as i felt i was a month ago. i need to find more PSP8 tutorials!! *sigh* well yeah, gunna go try getting used to tiny 50x50 squares...

oy i'm so bored. just got off the phone w/ Mike a lil while ago. :) made me happy to finally hear his voice again. we've been talking on AIM all week. i saw him Tuesday but that was too long ago... anyway, been trying to think of something new for xoxgraphics and i've come up with a few things... none of which i feel comfortable enough to post as a freebie. *sigh* i don't want to do the same thing as everyone else ((which would be LJ info headers/username signs, blends, & information banners)) so yeah... hopefully i will discover something new soon! just gotta play around w/ settings a lil more :)

( samples of my work )

yeah, the first 3 are the tough ones... ya need just the right photos. and the last 3 need to be smaller, but they're pretty easy. i'm gunna go now i guess. nothing else to talk about. *muah*